A new beginning

So I stopped dieting. And exercising. And I feel miserable. But I've realized that I can't hide from depression any longer and have finally confronted it and am seeing a therapist. I went for the second time tonight and I feel like it will make a difference. Help me see life in a new way and give me a different perspective to view emotional situations.
Tonight my therapist gave me the challenge of confronting the emotion I am trying to hide from before I indulge in food to bury it. Ahh so much harder than it sounds. I immediately got in the car and ate the Big Mac Kirk got me for dinner. And then complained that there wasn't a drink and fries to eat with it. Came home and had a bowl of cereal. Ate a few pistachios. Then after the girls were in bed went and got a big bag of peanut butter m&ms and buttered popcorn and mountain dew. And have already eaten all of it. Does it sound like I confronted any emotions to you? No mam.
But then I talked it through with Kirk and now feel ready to try this whole emotional thinking and eating healthy thing. So I'm back to blogging.
My numbers tonight are:
Weight: 269.8
Bust: 53"
Waist: 52"
Hips: 52.5"
Thigh: 31"
Calves: 18.5
Arm: 16"
Neck: 15.5"

Inches gained= 16
Pounds gained= 19

crap