A new beginning

So I stopped dieting. And exercising. And I feel miserable. But I've realized that I can't hide from depression any longer and have finally confronted it and am seeing a therapist. I went for the second time tonight and I feel like it will make a difference. Help me see life in a new way and give me a different perspective to view emotional situations.
Tonight my therapist gave me the challenge of confronting the emotion I am trying to hide from before I indulge in food to bury it. Ahh so much harder than it sounds. I immediately got in the car and ate the Big Mac Kirk got me for dinner. And then complained that there wasn't a drink and fries to eat with it. Came home and had a bowl of cereal. Ate a few pistachios. Then after the girls were in bed went and got a big bag of peanut butter m&ms and buttered popcorn and mountain dew. And have already eaten all of it. Does it sound like I confronted any emotions to you? No mam.
But then I talked it through with Kirk and now feel ready to try this whole emotional thinking and eating healthy thing. So I'm back to blogging.
My numbers tonight are:
Weight: 269.8
Bust: 53"
Waist: 52"
Hips: 52.5"
Thigh: 31"
Calves: 18.5
Arm: 16"
Neck: 15.5"

Inches gained= 16
Pounds gained= 19

crap

March

Weight: 250.8
Arms: 14 1/2
Waist: 49
Hips: 50 1/2
Thigh: 29 1/2
Neck:15
Calf: 18
Chest: 46
Pounds Lost: 10.4
Inches Lost: 8 3/4

I was really hoping to be under 250, but oh well. I will work harder this month! It's finally March!!!!

2 Miles!

That's right yesterday I ran two miles at the gym and then I ran another two this morning. I can't tell you how much better I feel. I just stare at myself in the mirror and think to myself that I am actually doing this! I'm losing weight, I'm running! Ok, it's only at 4.0 so it's more like a show jog, but I'm doing it and I will get faster!
I'm so glad to be getting into shape. Today I realized that if my family was in danger I would be able to run with them. I've had a fear the last couple of years that I wouldn't be able to run with my girls to safety if we were in danger. But now that I'm getting in shape we are all better off!
And today I realized how much I love my body! I have not liked my body at all for the past four years. But today? Today I love my body. My body that ran TWO MILES! My body that made two beautiful daughters! My body that takes care of them. My body that loves my husband. My body that cooks, cleans, drives, smiles...when we stop to think about it it's amazing at how wonderful our bodies are. How many things we are able to do with them. I finally LOVE my body! I'm grateful for my body and I want to do everything possible to take care of it!
On Sunday I weighed 250.8.
Only a few days until we weigh and measure.
Thanks for helping me and motivating me to take better care of myself.

Dynelle You ROCK!!!

I am so amazed by you! You've lost 39 pounds in the same time Kristy and I have lost eleven each. Well, I flet good this morning but by this afternoon I am wiped out. So I still don't exercise yet, but soon. I am focusing on eating right. And avoiding my husbands sabatoging ways. My pants are all tighter and I feel hideous. That keeps me doing good. I can't wait for the second trimester.

What am I eating? Basic boring stuff, everything sounds gross. Except Mexican. Darn Elizabeth's salsa. I wish I had that recipe and could eat it with celery sticks. That sounds good.

Dynelle keep it up, you inspire me. Kristy, lets hear from you.

An Entire Mile (complete without stopping)

I just thought you should know that I just ran a full mile.
A MILE!!!!!!
I felt so good the entire time. I just envisioned all the fat leaving my body...such an amazing feeling.
2 1/2 months til 5K, time is ticking!

I should also mentioned that it was 1% incline.
Oh and that for part of it I ran at 6.0

that's right I did

Chelsey's Birthday

I weighed in again this morning.
254.0
I lost 1.7 pounds since last week.
Kirk said it was awesome considering it was Valentines weekend.
Good I suppose, but I know I can do better. I only worked out once last week. It's incredibly hard to get a decent workout in with my current living conditions.

Which is why today I proudly joined the Las Vegas Athletic Club! For $23 a month I can take the girls to daycare and workout for 2 hours...everyday! I think it is the perfect solution. I can also participate in exercise classes and spin classes...yay!!! I'm going to workout tonight!

My new favorite meal is the Turkey wrap and Jason's Deli. Whole wheat tortilla, loaded with turkey, sprouts, and tomatoes I crave it all the time. With a side of fruit it's delicious and nutritious!

What are your favorite meals lately? How do you find time to workout?

Here's to a better week this week!

(I totally posted this on my family blog first without realizing it. How embarrassing!!!!!!)

down 5 more

So I weighed myself again today after one week.
I am happy to report that I lost another 5.5 pounds.
I officially weigh 255.7...WAHOO!
I feel so...accomplished.
I love the feeling of knowing I am doing something about my weight.
My goal this week is to walk 10,000 steps a day.
Yes, I am the nerd wearing around a pedometer.

Eating is a challenge for me because of my living circumstances.
I don't have many of my cooking dishes here.
We eat out or frozen foods a lot.
When I eat out I try to order the most healthy/lowest calorie option.
Or I just eat only a small portion of the meal.
When I eat frozen foods I eat a serving size that is 300 calories or less.
When you start reading labels you'll be amazed at what has loaded calories and what doesn't.
I eat fruits, yogurts, and string cheese as my staples or snack foods.

Exercise is key for me.
I've noticed the days I don't exercise I don't feel like eating as healthy.
I also feel more motivated and energized when I do exercise.

I would love to hear your measurements and weights on this blog. It's the 8th and I'm the only one who has posted this month...hint hint

One Month Down

So they aren't the best quality pictures, but you get the general idea of what -31 1/2 pounds will do to me. I am elated with my weight loss and so motivated to kick some major fat butt! I didn't get my measurements from January 1st(living with mom and all) so I've supplemented with some measurements I took in November...granted I was 10 pounds lighter than when I started in January but still improvement!

November
I took my measurements and pictures this morning. Try to muscle back the gag reflex because its pretty disgusting! Check it out:
Weight: 282.2
Arms: 15 3/4
Waist: 52 1/2
Hips 55
Thigh 31
Neck 16 1/2
Calf 19 1/2
Chest 53

February 1, 2010
Weight: 261.2
Arms: 14 1/2
Waist: 50 1/2
Hips: 52 1/2
Thigh: 29 1/2
Neck: 15
Calf: 18 1/4
Chest: 51

Total inches lost: 12
Total pounds lost: 31.6

Holding out 28 days strong

As you already now I weighed myself on Monday. I was starting to think that this dieting thing isn't really working out so I jumped on the scales and was pleasntly surprised to find out I have lost 24.4 pounds in just 25 days! Fantastic isn't it?
I've finally been able to return to exercise after going 10 days without it. I bought a Walk Away the Pounds dvd the 4 mile walk slim. It's an hour long and I am dripping sweat by the time I'm finished. With the parks being so scary down here and our double stroller still in storage I have given up the dream of running until we move into our house. Bummer deal but hopefully I will be in better shape for when I do start running.
My food choices aren't what I wish they were living down here but I am managing to eat as healthy as possible. Mostly eating less and not snacking.
Kristy I'm anxious to hear how you are doing.

Plus size and Pregnant

Yep! That's me, very happy about the pregnant part, not so much the plus size part. I am finding increasingly hard to not eat the junk food, healthy food makes me feel nauseas. But I eat it anyway. All I really want is just one package of oreos. But I keep reminding myself that I would hate myself in the morning. So healthy food it is. I am also very tired and feel like I have to choose between exercise or a clean house. Both is just too much. But today I was sneaky and chose a clean house and will go exercise tonight. I am tired and exercising is the last thing I want to do. But Do it I must! I also have been reading Dr. Phil's book and He said if you want to be fat live like a fat person, If you want to be thin live like a think person. Simple as that! I 've realized slowly how fat people live to feel numb. There is comfort in numb. But, living as a put together thin person is happier. Getting there is the hard part. Learning to feel sad about how I look rather than numb myself through it. Today I have been feeling especially fat and frumpy, it's hard not to when you are no longer numb.
On Sunday someone complimented me. She asked if I had lost weight. I know I really haven't but it felt so good that she thought that I had. So off to exercise I go!

Some More Motivation

I was browsing blogs today and ran into this one....and I knew you'd both love it.
http://badassfitness.typepad.com/badass-fitness/2010/01/meet-the-original-badass.html

I thought it was very motiviational. I love seeing before and after pictures. That is going to be us someday soon...I can't wait.

You ladies are doing great. I'm proud of each of you.

Little by Little

Today as I was getting ready to go volunteer at the Kid's school, I noticed that my pants were just a little bit looser. Just enough for me to notice. It is a nice feeling, giving me hope for the weeks to come of seeing even better improvements. I am really proud of us ladies. We are doing it and sticking to it!

Vegas

I'm in Vegas and holding out strong. Yesterday I ran half a mile on the treadmill. HALF A MILE!!! It felt ah-maz-ing! I think I want to run everyday for the rest of my life! Kirk, who hasn't seen my for five days, thinks I am looking better. I am loving this eating healthier i feel so good being in control of my life!

Biggest Motivation

So yesterday I was in Walmart. My old friends pringles, m&ms, soda, cookies...they were all looking at me like I had deserted them. For about a minute I wondered to myself why I gave them all up. After all they tasted like a little bit of heaven...I love heaven! But I knew I couldn't give in, my sisters would have my hide! Then I realized I didn't want to give in, for the first time in a long time I was accomplishing a huge goal. Something that would make my life better. So I thought for a minute if I could find a different goal to do, but losing weight and feeling better has to be the first goal I accomplish in order to accomplish all of my other goals. It was a really cool moment for me. Making a goal and accomplishing it is one of the greatest feelings in the world I think.
Just thought I'd share my latest thoughts.

Day 11

So we have been doing this for a week and half. We rock! I have so much more energy not to mention I love the fact that my body is disappearing! My exercise pants (who were recently washed) weren't so tight when I put them on this morning...YAY!!! Camille tempted me to go ahead and weigh this morning. I wanted to see my progress but I know I always loose so much in the first week that I get sad when I don't loose as much in the following weeks. It'll be better for me to just weigh once a month. I really want to do salads for lunches...sandwiches are getting boring quite frankly. Last night I was tempted to munch in the evening...Kirk was gone, the girls insisted on screaming nonstop, and I was tired so I am really glad that we have our no eating after 6:00 rule....it definitely helped me last night. Eating healthier are you surprised at how unhealthy you were eating? It kinda grosses me out.
I'll be honest my biggest motivation is still Park City!

7 Pounds Down!

That's right, I lost seven pounds this week. I know you two lost probably twice that but I am still so happy to not be that nasty number anymore. I ate quite well last night on my date, Yay me. That's never easy. It feels so good to be in control , let's keep it all up. Love you guys!

Emtions...seriously already had enough to last a lifetime

This moving to Vegas is really hard on me emotionally. It seems like Kirk and I are changing our minds every 5 minutes about whether the girls and I will move down with him this weekend or not. And when emotional things happen I like to eat...drown out all of those "feelings" that I don't like to have. I'm really dreading the whole moving experience...being away from Kirk, finding a new place, unpacking, cleaning the new house, transitioning the girls (it was so hard on Kirsten when we moved from Provo to St George...moving away from all of this family is going to be killer transition), going to a new ward and meeting new people, trying to make new friends, trying to find my way around Vegas (where is the Target!?). And so everyday is a fight against my emotional feelings. Starve those feelings away? No conquer those feelings with exercise? Dance the feelings away with Kirsten?

Day 5 down. 360 to go until Park City. I can't wait!!!

Day Five

Dynelle and I worked out so hard today. It feels so good to be back on track. My goal today is to have dinner before 5:00. I did this last October and it worked well for me. When I eat with my family at 6:30, I tend to eat too late and too much. So that is my new goal.

I am so glad we are doing this girls. I feel so much better already. Thanks for motivating me.

Feel so Strong!

We did good this morning girls. I really enjoyed our workout. Well except those stairs. Yuck.

We are doing good and I am so Proud of us. But after all that workout I was very hungry, I ate breakfast before so then after I had to have another bowl of cereal. I am going to need to wait to eat breakfast after the workout. I wake up so hungry every morning. I am scared that I am going to maintain instead of lose because of hunger. Last year we worked so hard at the Rec Center but never lost. Any advice Sisters?

I want to look like this and wear these famous blue capri's this Easter. Is that possible?

Cookies

Amanda just made the most delicious smelling and looking chocolate chip cookies. She brought Kirk down a plate of 6 cookies and a huge cup of milk. I'm insanely tempted...but strong!

Second Day Down

Ok, so does anyone else find it incredibly hard to eat healthy with holidays still going on? There is so much good food still hanging around the house and mom's peanut brittle is screaming at me every second of the day. But I remain strong in my healthy eating. Kirk took us to Subway for dinner. No mayo or cheese on my honey oat bread sandwich. I feel really good about my eating and have surprisingly not really been hungry (guess the 292 pounds are helping me out a little there). I feel like I need to exercise more and move more. It's hard to make the lifestyle change. But I feel good and am proud of us for doing this together and motivating each other. Maybe if this blog does well we will get to be on Oprah and share our success story with the world :) Love you girls!

This is my before picture. I am on my famous adventure with Amanda. These snowpants are so tight Amanda had to pull me back up. I miss being able to move easier.

Change can come in either of two ways: Start behaving positively or stop behaving negatively. ---Dr. Phil

We have made our decision. So glad to have made it. But I am struggling. I get so hungary in the evenings. It's all I can do to stay hanging on. But I keep thinking of my two sisters being strong so I keep hanging on. YAY us!

Kristy's Stats

Well, I may be the slowest one to post....but I promise you, I'm the most motivated. I have a trip to Disneyland this spring to inspire me to lose this tummy.....and hips, and round face. I have been too large for too long. I long to feel energetic, to move around with ease and to have the thermostat of a normal person...I'm sick of being the warmest person in the family. There are so many reasons, I really could go on and on but the most important is that I am not myself at this size. I'm ready to find my confidant and happy self and I hope to have her here by this time next year. And so without further ado, here are my measurements.

Bust 43"
Chest 37"
Waist 43.5"
Hips 50"
Arm 13.5"
Thigh 28"
Calf 15.25"
Neck 14
Knee 16

Weight: 225

So it began a long time ago with pizza but here is the beginning of the end

So my two older sisters and I have decided 2010 is the year for us to get fit and have a healthier eating style (some people call this dieting). Two days ago we sat down together over a cafe rio pork salad (no we did not share we gladly ate our own "big enough for four people" salad). Since the three of us are experts when it comes to dieting we each came up with our own dieting tips that we should all try to keep. These are the ones I remember:

• Keep moving...try to be idle as little as possible
• No eating after 6:00
• exercise daily
• pick a eating plan and stick to it
• no sugar for the entire year of 2010 (including our daughters birthday cakes)
• Out to lunch celebration the end of May to celebrate our success
• The first day of each month weigh and measure and post our stats on our blog
• Each of us post on our weight loss blog at least once a week
• Start our healthy diet change at the stroke of midnight on New Years

And so since this is the first day of the year I weighed myself. It really really wasn't pretty.
Dynelle's starting weight: 292.8

It's a New Year!!!

YAY we are on a diet!!!!

YIKES I weighed 200.0 pounds. But today Dynelle came over and we used our muscles on the Bowflex and already we look so much better.